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Poets of the Fall – Baltic Princess; December 14th, 2017

Less than two weeks after the last cruise I was back on a ship between Turku and Stockholm to see Poets of the Fall. Considering how little I care for those trips I sure do them often. 😉 While we were very few last time, there were a whole lot of us this time around – more than enough to fill the front row. With snow falling heavily over most of Europe, a lots of us were afraid not to make it and some flight were canceled, but in the end, most of us got there on time. I had expected a crazy run for the stage, but it was actually quite easy and we all ended up were we wanted to be. The gig was funny, amazing and way too short. In fact it felt shorter than the others, but wasn’t – time was just going extra fast.

I flew to Helsinki the evening before the cruise and luckily got a good night’s sleep at my friend K.’s place. After she returned from work we made our way to Turku and met everyone at the harbor. Our group alone had people from six countries. 🙂 Sadly, E.’s flight had been cancelled and she would not join us until he Excited chatter passed the time until boarding, we got ready and met outside the club. A few of us had presents for the guys (I brought cookies like every year) and we handed them all to Tiia and Satu when they walked in. Little did we know hat the guys would still be there when the doors opened. The crew had many familiar faces this night with Einari and Hannu around apart from Glen and Marko H. – it was nice seeing them again. 🙂

Strangely there was no house band playing before the Poets did so we could go to the front row right away and stay there. This lead to some people asking us what we were already doing there. One guy from the boat’s staff talked to S. for a while, asking questions about our group. The waiting time passed surprisingly quick. When the house music stopped we were all screaming, but before the Poets an announcer walked out (I think it was the same guy who talked to S. earlier) and bowed because we cheered so loudly. It was quite funny.  He said a few words and I caught that he listed all the different countries we had come from. then he announced the guys and we went back to cheering.

I always love the moment when the guys first walk out on stage, seeing the all so familiar gestures they great us with – a raised hand, a smile. the audience response at this moment is a good indicator of the show to come. this time, it was loud. Everyone took their place and Marko urged us to scream some more – of course we obliged. Having Anton on drum for the night was no surprise for me – he had already posted a picture of the stage on Instagram. He was all smiles, obviously happy to be there.

Soon the show was in full swing and it was so much more fun than I had dared to expect. I have a love/hate relationship with cruise gigs, because even in the best of cases the audience is never completely made up of fans, but always includes people who just happened to be there. That can work brilliantly or go horribly wrong. This time around, with so many fans from all over at the front and my friends by my side it was brilliant. the audience in general was welcoming, the sound was good and I love the current setlist so I could not have asked for more. 🙂

Details? Oh my, I remember a few things here and there, but generally it’s a blur and it’s safe to say they were being their usual selves – rocking hard and playing jokes on each other. Jani was posing for cameras, presenting his best “yeah, metal!”- face, Ollie was jumping high with flying hair and sent his fingers speeding across his guitar, and Captain could often be seen pointing at the others to show who we should be looking at or just raising his hand in tune with the music. Anton kept a steady beat and a steady smile, Jaska, who looked especially happy that night, showed soft guitar picking and some rocking solos, instrument raised in the air and Marko was entertaining us with some crazy dance moves when he wasn’t busy making connection with people in the crowd.

We watched, we sang along and we smiled – at the band and at each other, happy to be there. I tried finding a balance between capturing the show with my camera and just enjoying it, sometimes not knowing whom to watch. I loved it when Ollie, Jaska or Jani played right in front of me and followed their fingers across the strings with my eyes. I loved it when they visited Captain and Anton in the back, standing and playing with them. They stood in a half circle with Captain, urging each other on, all of them leaning back and forward at different points in time, just going nuts while they played. I can’t really describe the moves, but just picture them being lost in the music and rocking out. I loved having such a good view of Anton too – he was in a zone, showing us some great drumming and shared high fives with Jani as well as Marko after especially difficult and great bits.

Marko was speaking English most of the night which is unusual for shows in Finland and was much appreciated by all of us. He made sure to look at each one of us and sang a line or a few to most. I remember a glimpse of S.’s happy gig face when he sang parts of ‘Illusion & Dream’ to her and I’m sure we all had that look on our faces at one time or another. 😀 at one point Marko even went into a crowd and could not be seen for a while, at least not by Ollie who was clearly searching for him. He noticed and waved at him from the back- I’m over here! It was such a cute moment.

There was a lot of love going around with the guys hugging each other  or patting each other’s backs. Of course they were kidding around too like the time they came back for encores when Marko was pretending to grab Ollie’s guitar on the way to the stage. he did not take it, but of course he had to walk up to Ollie and turn the tuners on the neck of his guitar. Apparently that wasn’t enough though and he did it to Jaska too – the look on his face one of pure mischief. Somewhere along the line, I believe it was when Marko came back from his venture off stage, he found a rope on the floor. He checked it out, held it over his head and posed or a while and then dropped it somewhere on the drum raiser only to have Jaska pick it up. Jaska in turn took a good look at it, tied it into a loose know and draped it over Captain’s keyboard stand. It remained there until Captain removed it and swung it over his head like a lasso for a while before it ended up on the floor. you can always count on the guys to be playful. 😀

Of course they played amazing music for us too, but you know that already. 😉 It was beautiful, it was moving, it put huge grins on our faces and we did all the right moves at the right time. Somehow, most of us didn’t have a glass to raise for ‘Illusion & Dream’, but we raised our hands anyway and all the sing alongs worked out well too. as usual it was over in a heartbeat and left me wanting more. As I watched them walking out, Jani throwing kisses and Ollie shaking hands I dreamed of a concert that would last so long I’d feel it was long enough, but I honestly don’t know how many hours of songs  I’d need to feel like that. 😛

We stuck around a little bit after, got drinks at the bar and met Anton here. We thanked him and chatted for a little while. He told us how much he enjoyed playing with the guys and when I noted that I’d seen him sing along he said remembering the lyrics helped with his drumming and singing along made it easier. Since he does not play with the guys all the time, this is his tricks to remember the songs better. Sweet! the night ended with quiet drinks and reminiscing about the gig we had just seen, sharing pictures and thoughts. It was lovely.

pictures of this concert

Setlist

Shadow Play Intro
Dreaming wide awake
Center Stage
Crystalline
Stay
Temple of Thought
Rogue
Illusion & Dream
The Game
The Child in me
Carnival of Rust

Shadow Play
Daze
Lift
Children of the Sun

Sadness like a black mountain

Árstíðir / Myrkur / Sólstafir – Heimathafen Neukölln, Berlin; December 12th, 2017

An already busy week turned extra busy when I decided to add the Sólstafir concert in Berlin to my schedule. I just felt I needed to see one of the concerts in Germany and this was the only one I could make it to. Unfortunately it started later than all the others which resulted in very little sleep, but I was glad I went. It was brilliant! 🙂

I left work early to get to Berlin in time for the doors opening, only to find out that it was not going to happen until 8 pm, two hours later than at the other two shows I have been to. Oh well, at least I could get some sleep and much needed food before the show. I arrived, hoping to hang out with my friend I. before the show, but she did not arrive until after the doors had opened. Got to see Ragnar for a brief pre-show chat though since I’d brought beer for the guys. They were crazy busy with loading, setting up and giving an interview before the show.

I was looking much forward to Árstíðir’s set. My friend K. had seen them in Cracow and told me they had played three new songs. They had also been borrowing Sólstafir’s drummer and I was curious to hear how that would work out. First there as some time to kill though and I was happy when I. arrived and we could talk for a while. Time flew by after that. 🙂

Suddenly the lights went down and the guys were on stage, starting with ‘Himinhvel’. It felt weird not to have my camera in my hands, I cannot remember the last one of their concerts where I did not have it with me. Anyway, I enjoyed being able to concentrate on the music for once (and took some pics with my phone instead 😉 ). The first moment I thought the sound wasn’t too good, but it improved right away. I wanted to make their music last for at least an hour, but I knew I wasn’t going to get that much, so I worked hard on taking in what I had. I watched them play and tried to understand as much of the new song’s lyrics as I could. Even ‘Passion’, the second song they played and the one I have heard most often by now is not familiar enough for me yet.

They barely announced the songs this night. As Ragnar put it “Less talking, more playing”. They only had thirty minutes. ‘Shine’ was next and I realized how much I have missed the song. It was beautiful and it felt like it had evolved again from the last time I’ve heard it. It might have been my imagination, but somehow it felt different. I was wondering when Hallgrímur, Sólstafir’s drummer, would join them when Gunnar called him to the stage. ‘Things you said’ sounded a lot more powerful with him there and his playing fit right in with the other songs as well. ‘Mute’ was next, reminding me again of how much the band and their sound has changed since I first saw them – we’ve come a long way.

K. had talked about three new songs and the third one was ‘While this way’, which I had never heard before. Like the others, I loved it instantly. The guys never cease to amaze me! <3 The grand finale was ‘Shades’ and the added drums made me forget all about the missing strings. It is so much more powerful this way. I could totally see them in a six man line-up that includes a drummer. 🙂 I did not want them to leave, their set made me really happy. It was so much better than the one they played early on the tour, so much more fitting with their new style and the other two bands of the night. I was already looking forward to Stockholm!

Setlist

Himinhvel
Passion
Shine
Things you said
Mute
While this way
Shades

I. left right after, she did not even want to give the other bands a try so I was on my own for the rest of the night. The changeover went quickly and to my great relief I could finally verify that the members of Myrkur have paint, not tattoos on their faces. That’s what I had assumed, but I wasn’t sure and somehow face tattoos are just really weird to me. Anyway, after a very short break the show continued and I just wished I could fast forward to that part.

It was interesting to watch for a little while, because the bassist played his bass with a bow and the guitar player was playing on his knees right in front of me, but the music still bored me after about 15 minutes and I wanted it to be over. Sorry, Myrkur, I tried, but I cannot relate to this at all.

Setlist

Mareridt
The Serpent
Ulvinde
Onde børn
Jeg er guden, i er tjenerne
Måneblôt
Elleskudt
Skøgen skulle dø
Skaði

Once again they did the changeover quickly and Sólstafir were on stage in no time. By now I knew what was coming and being camera free allowed me to actually watch the whole stage instead of looking for pictures the entire time. It was quite nice. There was no barrier in front of the stage either so they came really close to me several times. The setlist stayed the same so I sort of knew what was coming this time around, everything felt more familiar.

Addi talked surprisingly much this night. Apparently Sólstafir have played many gigs in Berlin and he wanted to know who had been at some of the recent ones. This one was highly energetic and fun, but I was just a little too tired to fully enjoy it. My thoughts were drifting off at times, but I did like it overall, liked seeing them work. They all play well and I got some good views of guitars and bass when they came to the front to play. I could not see all that much of Hallgrímur and Ragnar in the back this time, because they were often hidden by dry ice smoke – whoever thought that was a good invention anyway?

I recognized the songs from the last concerts, but I still cannot remember which is which at least for the first ones. It doesn’t matter to me though, as I am beginning to enjoy them all. Addi’s singing voice took some getting used to for me, but he puts so much emotion into it, that I can feel the songs without understanding any of the words. It took a while, but their music does get under my skin.

For a while I managed to let go of my tiredness and my worries and just be there, feel the music, move in tune, even band my head. It was fun. I liked watching the audience too. Some people really got into it, watched in awe, made connections. Still, I was sad somehow and when it was time for ‘Bláfjall’ even the announcement of taking care about people who suffer from depression got to me. Addi told us that the sadness, the darkness that comes with depression feels like a black mountain and at that moment I felt it too, felt the weight of so many things I’d worried about lately. The song totally killed me and I did not fight the tears. His singing was so emotional that I could feel the pain with every fiber of my being and I just let it be. Crying helped, I felt better after. I even smiled when Addi spoke to someone in the audience “You look sad, are you OK”. It was very caring. 🙂

During ‘Goddess of the Ages’ he went into the audience once again and this time it all went smoothly. Daníel was there holding the microphone cable from the start and he looked nowhere near as worried as in Paris. Must have been routine by now. 😉 At the end of course the whole band went nuts again. Ragnar, who has grown into his role as the band’s keyboarder, took the hammond for a walk in the end, lifting it up on his shoulders. The thing must be heavy, but he still kept on playing. It was quite funny to watch. 😀

Even though it was late already it felt like it was over way too soon. One final bow and they left. I stuck around for a while, chatted with Gunnar and told him how much I enjoyed the new songs and how they’d need a drummer on the next tour. I told Ragnar the same. They both thanked me for the snus and beer I’d brought. Sure, any time. Soon they needed to get back to work and I needed sleep so we said goodbye. One more gig to go. 🙂

Setlist

Silfur-Refur
Ótta
Lágnætti
Ísafold
Köld
Hula
Fjara
Bláfjall
Goddess of the Ages