No excuses, no apologies, no regrets

Ragnar Ólafsson – Meskalina, Poznań; September 7th, 2020

The first show in Poznań and the penultimate show of the tour became the glorious reopening of Meskalina before it actually opened. The small place was brimming with joy and for this gig all bets were off and anything seemed possible. We had a great night overall where Poznań once again revealed its special magic and traditions were upheld. 😀

When I woke up in Wrocław it did not look like a good day. I’m not sure if I was still drunk or already hungover, but either way I was dehydrated and headachy. Also I didn’t sleep enough and felt really sad and vulnerable for some reason. One pain pill and a hot shower later I was slightly better, but would have much rather crawled back into bed than get on a train and travel. However, I did make it to Poznań and had only one goal: get to my hotel and get more sleep. Sadly things didn’t work out as planned, because despite confirmed check in time they did not open the door when I rang the bell and I could not reach them via phone either. Luckily the reservation could still be canceled and thanks to  I quickly found a new hotel, ten minutes away and closer to the venue. Finally I had a bed and some quiet to sleep.

A two hour nap later I felt considerably better and hungry so I ate some and got ready for the gig. The Meskalina, absolutely my favorite venue in Poznań and one of the best in all of Poland had been closed for about a year and was now reopening in a new location. They did not get quite ready on time so this night’s gig would be the first one, before they even officially opened their doors. I had not been to the location yet and was just walking about in search for the entrance, when B. (the owner) came along, remembered me from a gig in February and showed me the way. Soundcheck was still ongoing so I had to wait outside. M. came out to get something from the car and we chatted briefly. A while later J. and her boyfriend arrived and soon after they let us in. Suddenly I was extremely hungry so I grabbed a chair and went back out in search for food.

Returned after a quick snack, hugged Kathia and Raggi, said hello to a few familiar people and settled down. Still wasn’t feeling all that great, but immediately liked the new venue. No use complaining either, I had certainly earned that hangover. It was small with the stage in one corner and maybe 30 seats. Lights were nice and I could feel great expectations in the air. Everyone was getting ready for the show – Raggi was shadow-boxing side stage, all smiles and ready to go.

First we heard from Kathia though. This was a hometown show for her and thus extra special. She had friends and family in the room and played a brilliant set for all of us. I don’t even know what to say about her songs any more. They are really amazing and I can’t get over the fact that she is only 18 – with so much talent she hopefully will go far. For now, I and probably everyone else in the room was mesmerized by her performance and we all cheered for her loudly.

This time we got a break between sets and all the doors were opened to air out the room for a bit. Even though the chairs were placed at a distance from each other we probably should have all been wearing masks. Just like at all the other gigs few of us did, myself not included. Have I forgotten about the ongoing pandemic or stopped caring? Not really, but I do admit it felt good not to think about it for a few hours. When I set out on this tour I knew I was taking a risk and I have absolutely no excuse. What I can say though is that I have not continuously felt this much alive, happy and mentally healthy in a long time. After months of dread, fear and sadness, it finally feels like I have my life back. So while I have no excuses, I have no regrets either. Once I get back home I will go back to being a hermit, who only goes out for work and bare necessities. Oh and get Covid tested obviously.

Raggi stepped on stage and started with adjusting the microphone and greeting us. He mentioned how nervous he felt and that he’d start the show slowly today and joked that later he’d take his clothes off and stage dive. I’ve definitely seen him do the latter, but somehow it didn’t seem like that kind of a night. 😉 The first song, as expected, was ‘SSDD’, followed by ‘Wine’ – a fitting start to ease us into the show. He showed of his Polish skills and promised to teach us some Icelandic. After “skál” it was “umferðaröngþveiti” and he claimed it meant “I love you” – I giggled, even more so when someone commented “that’s complicated love”. My mood instantly got better and he told us what it really means (traffic jam).

‘A Prayer’ felt really intense that night. Awesome! He asked Kathia back on stage. They sang ‘Minor Scratch’ first and I noticed that Raggi’s voice was slightly lower than usual, but just as good. There is no way for me to describe properly how much I love the song, I should just stop trying. He spoke about different forms of storytelling (writing versus songwriting) and traveling to get inspiration and commented that ‘Mexico’ was not the most original title considering it is a song written in Mexico about Mexico. As he started playing he turned and for a second the guitar gots stuck in the back of Kathia’s dress. It caused some laughter.

Next we heard about his trip to “Mekka” which for a songwriter is Nashville, Tennessee and driving motorcycles in the smoky mountains. He introduced ‘Water’ and ended with saying that he doesn’t understand how he wrote the song two days before the accident it is about. Usually people stay quiet at that point, but this time some found that funny. It was weird for a moment, but did not take any of the song’s strength away. It is absolutely a masterpiece. It always makes me sad and very often brings me to tears, but that is exactly as it should be. He then introduced ‘Shine’ as “another song about death” and explained what it is really about. That very rarely happens and always creates a special atmosphere. Then he talked about using the metaphor of a trip to mars and the things one would miss… “like Polish piroggy” – the joke broke the tension. And still the song got to me as it always does. <3

‘Time’ brought us more stories about Mexico and Tequila, before we mentally traveled to the Mississippi again and heard about how each travel destination brings different inspiration and thus the river brought the blues – ‘Muddy Waters’ was great. Raggi taught us more Icelandic, throwing complicated words at us. Someone in the audience threw it right back at him with a complicated Polish word and he just replied “Gesundheit”. 😀 “lalala” was easy though and we all managed to sing along nicely to ‘Örlög’. Without further ado he went right into ‘Bravery’ and hell yes it rocked!

Kathia was back for more duets, but first he had to tell us how a blue note came flying out of the air and lead to ‘Message’. If perfection has a name it should be the title of this song. Just wow! ‘Petals’ of course was in no way less beautiful. These two songs are a killer combo. <3 It was time for the glockenspiel, the Borow-Cow and ‘Dragonfly’ – how did we get there that quickly? They all had fun with it and so did we. 😀

We demanded encores and – as tradition has it – Raggi played Enrique Iglesias’ ‘Hero’ for us. It really made me grin, because he mixed up the lyrics just as much as I always do when I attempt to play it on the ukulele. Who cares? – it was fun and everyone was singing along loudly! Especially funny was Raggi’s running commentary on how bad the lyrics are. 😉 Of course he could not leave us without ‘Southern Nights’ and again we got a great sing along going together with Kathia and Bartek.

We kept cheering, even though someone put music on and what I had secretly hoped for happened: We got another encore – murder ballads of course. Again they joked about Kathia singing Nick Cave’s part and for a moment I thought they actually might do the song with the roles reversed, but they didn’t. However, they totally destroyed it by turning it into stand up comedy about halfway through. Raggi started the second verse with “On the second day I brought her a flower” and then added, spoken, all the other things he brought like “a box of chocolates, six seasons of friends and frozen pizza”. He screwed up the lyrics after and Kathia was just like “What are you doing?” – it all went downhill, i.e. got funnier from there. When the wild rose got killed with a rock he added how he kissed her but the face was all bloody, how it was hard to get stains out of a white shirt and how he left false evidence at the crime scene. I laughed really hard at that and how no idea how they managed to even sing the rest of the song. *giggles* ‘Sleep now’ the started standing at the edge of the stage and continued with a walk into the room, where it eventually morphed into a reprise of ‘Hero’ for which Raggi dropped on his knees in front B., singing to him. Sadly the room was too dark to take pictures, so you’re gonna have to take my word for it. The song ended with B. and Raggi standing arm in arm and all of us singing along. Perfect show was perfect!

We stood around and hugged and chatted and joked for a while. I felt an early onset of post tour depression, but was still really happy. All of us were tired and there was not going to be any going out that night. So we said goodbye with a final hug and soon I was home for a good night’s sleep. Just one more time my dear.

pictures of this concert


A Prayer
Minor Scratch
Muddy Waters

Southern Nights

Where the wild Roses grow
Sleep now
Hero (reprise)

Ragnar Ólafsson – m.i.s.s. is in town tour – seven gigs down, one to go.Next stop: Poznań

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